Intermission

Three years ago for about 4 or 5 months I blogged and I liked it. Things in my life we're going off track, Mia was missing more and more milestones while everyone else around me seemed so happy, their kids were on track or ahead of schedule and blogging was no longer helpful for me. A few times since then I have tried to blog again and just didn't really stick with it. I decided to give blogging another shot. It is a great way for me to get these thoughts and emotions out of my head. I also think it's a great way for me to see how far Mia has come as well as acknowledge the emotional journey this has been for me. I truly believe God has a plan for Mia. I do believe Mia has touched and continues to touch a lot of lives and she is my living and breathing proof that God does answer prayers.

I decided to do an 'intermission' post verses continuing on to 'The Delivery' post. I realized that though I am often forced to recount Mia's birth when meeting new people or new doctors blogging about it last night forced me to acknowledge the true depth of pain I still have. I often do feel cheated and from a religious standpoint I feel wrong for feeling that way as God does have a perfect plan'. Often times I look around and it seems like everyone has 'typical' kids and their life is 'so easy'. I know the grass isn't always greener on the other side, but sometimes it seems like it is.

Having Mia has taught me so much, so much more than I would have ever learned had labor gone according to my plan. I've learned to appreciate life, struggles and people with disabilities. I've learned to be more compassionate, less judgmental and I've learned even more how important my faith in God is.